Lists

Ok, so my Dr. decided that he cried wolf too early. My little guy is still a mystery for a few more days. Mixed feelings about this, since I didn't want to be induced anyway, but also I was excited I was gonna have a baby to cuddle!

While I have the time, and even though I should be nesting in our new place (yeah, moving and having a baby the same month? Not recommended, but I guess that's how I roll. Thanks to both families, could NOT have even dreamed of doing this without you!) I'll use the time to make lists.

Things I Miss

-ankles

-tying my own shoes

-a waist

-dancing

-sleeping on my stomach

-a lap

-thinking clearly and logically

-talking without getting tongue tied

-picking something off the ground without grunting

Things I Will Miss

-Johnny's movements

-having an excuse to put my feet up

-having people comment on how cute I am when I walk/waddle

-not having to arrange for a babysitter

-being amazed at what the human body is capable of

-making my husband do everything for me:)

-the hiatus from a bad body image (I'm pregnant, no need to be skinny...)

I reserve the right to come back and edit this post at anytime, because I know there's some things that I am forgetting.

Until Then,

Big Momma

OMG I'm gonna be a mom.

Dear Johnny,

We are literally hours away from meeting face to face. I'm a little freaked out to be honest, but I just hope I have the ability to usher you into this world in a magical way. I can't believe that this time next week, I'll be changing your diaper!

This last month has been challenging to say the least, but you already have some crazy awesome accomplishments! We won the ugly holiday sweater contest at school. It was a normal red sweater that I decided needed some pizazz. Daddy was the one who suggested I put the HUGE bow right on my baby bump, and despite having a Christmas Cape attached to the back, I really think you were the winning factor! We both enjoyed the breakfast taco prize for first place.

The ultrasound tech also said you were growing leaps and bounds! They're estimating that you are over 10lbs right now, so be ready for mommy to hold that over your head for the rest of your life. My body will never be the same, but that's ok because I wasn't too fond of it to begin with. Maybe I'll like it better than I did before! After all, it brought me you.

I've been having to put away words like "can't" and "no". Poppa has been urging me to walk more and more, which is fine, except I have the equivalent of a 30lb bowling ball attached to my front, which makes walking more of a WIDE waddle. I also have nightmares about hitting a wall in the delivery room. Nonna and Daddy are going to be there cheering me on, so I'm sorry if their voices scare you. I still can't decide what to say or sing to you first. I feel like that is going to set the rest of your life in motion, so I want it to be right. Forgive me if it's not?

Now Jonathan, you are our first born. You will be the guinea pig unfortunately, but that doesn't mean you should listen to us any less. We have Neanie and Nonna, and Poppa making sure that we don't mess up. Aunt Laura will be there too, making sure that when you need a break from me or Dad. And even though Uncle Mike and Uncle Zack and Aunt Melinda are all the way in Missouri, we'll visit often and they will look out for your best interest too.

Little Boy, you are loved. From all sides and even in between. Everyone is holding their breath, and whenever you are ready, we'll be waiting. I'll be the one with the "I can't believe I just did that" look on my face. But you gotta believe...You are the best thing I've ever done.

See you soon...

Until Then,

Big Momma.