Monday, May 14, 2012
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Happy Mother's Day!
Dear Mom,
Now that I'm a Mother, I get to share this day with you. However, I still get to honor you as well. You have paved quite a road for me! I've loved learning from you every step of the way and can't find the words to express the depth of my gratitude.
First, My baby shower you threw with LB was awesome. I felt so special on that day and even though it was smack dab in the middle of the Holiday season, you made sure that it was nice and Johnny focused!
Then came my days leading up to his birthday. Every time I couldn't hold in the emotions, you were on the other end of that phone call coaching me through all the emotions you remembered going through. This too shall pass! You made sure that I knew you were going to be there for me on the all important day and with a bag of goodies even!
And then That Day came. I can't thank you enough for coming the night before and providing the cards for our go fish game. You always had a smile on your face and more than anything that put me at ease for what was coming the next day. I remember you sneaking in after your shift for your second job, your silhouette in the doorway was exactly what I needed to put on my big girl panties and deal since they had just given me the pitocin. And Lawd, did I try! You were there to braid my hair after I got the shower, help me back into bed, you sang through the tough contractions and held my hand, breathed with me, made sure that J didn't pass out even though he was threatening to. You were supermom even though you were about to be a grandma. You knew that I still needed my mommy, being 26 and about to become a mother myself, and you didn't withhold to try and make me fly on my own. You didn't even mind that all the activities you planned in your bag of goodies didn't happen, not a one!
The weeks that came after were tremendous; depending on my hormones and mood, they were tremendously good or bad. You never let me feel like anything I was going through was strange or crazy. You let me say all the things I felt bad about and reassured me that EVERY mother goes through that! Even though you had LB and me naturally (through the original birth canal!) you supported my mixed emotions about the c-section as well as allowed me to take things as slow as I needed to in order to let my body heal. You came over with Dad almost everyday and even offered to spend the night when I would cry as you left! You supported every decision I made as a new mother, but would offer advice when I had not a clue.
You gave Johnny his first real bath, and man was that a memory! I loved watching his face contort as he was trying to decide if he liked this new method of bathing or not. I am convinced that because of you, and your 'Bathtime With Nonna' my son still loves his baths today!
I love that you and Dad have a standing Friday night date with me and Johnny, and even though I wish you didn't have to wash my dishes, I appreciate when you do them. "Anything to help" you say.
My whole life has been an emotional journey. You were there at every step, every tear, every celebration, and every heartbreak. These past 3 months have been magnified by a billion.You are still there. And I will always need my mommy!
I look forward to being to Johnny what you were to me, But I'm going to need a lot of help!
Can't wait till Friday :)
Until Then,
Big Momma
Now that I'm a Mother, I get to share this day with you. However, I still get to honor you as well. You have paved quite a road for me! I've loved learning from you every step of the way and can't find the words to express the depth of my gratitude.
First, My baby shower you threw with LB was awesome. I felt so special on that day and even though it was smack dab in the middle of the Holiday season, you made sure that it was nice and Johnny focused!
Then came my days leading up to his birthday. Every time I couldn't hold in the emotions, you were on the other end of that phone call coaching me through all the emotions you remembered going through. This too shall pass! You made sure that I knew you were going to be there for me on the all important day and with a bag of goodies even!
And then That Day came. I can't thank you enough for coming the night before and providing the cards for our go fish game. You always had a smile on your face and more than anything that put me at ease for what was coming the next day. I remember you sneaking in after your shift for your second job, your silhouette in the doorway was exactly what I needed to put on my big girl panties and deal since they had just given me the pitocin. And Lawd, did I try! You were there to braid my hair after I got the shower, help me back into bed, you sang through the tough contractions and held my hand, breathed with me, made sure that J didn't pass out even though he was threatening to. You were supermom even though you were about to be a grandma. You knew that I still needed my mommy, being 26 and about to become a mother myself, and you didn't withhold to try and make me fly on my own. You didn't even mind that all the activities you planned in your bag of goodies didn't happen, not a one!
The weeks that came after were tremendous; depending on my hormones and mood, they were tremendously good or bad. You never let me feel like anything I was going through was strange or crazy. You let me say all the things I felt bad about and reassured me that EVERY mother goes through that! Even though you had LB and me naturally (through the original birth canal!) you supported my mixed emotions about the c-section as well as allowed me to take things as slow as I needed to in order to let my body heal. You came over with Dad almost everyday and even offered to spend the night when I would cry as you left! You supported every decision I made as a new mother, but would offer advice when I had not a clue.
You gave Johnny his first real bath, and man was that a memory! I loved watching his face contort as he was trying to decide if he liked this new method of bathing or not. I am convinced that because of you, and your 'Bathtime With Nonna' my son still loves his baths today!
I love that you and Dad have a standing Friday night date with me and Johnny, and even though I wish you didn't have to wash my dishes, I appreciate when you do them. "Anything to help" you say.
My whole life has been an emotional journey. You were there at every step, every tear, every celebration, and every heartbreak. These past 3 months have been magnified by a billion.You are still there. And I will always need my mommy!
I look forward to being to Johnny what you were to me, But I'm going to need a lot of help!
Can't wait till Friday :)
Until Then,
Big Momma
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